i woke up in the middle of the night last night and while i'm normally incredibly groggy, this time immediately the phrase "i will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living" came into my mind. i easily went back to sleep and looked up the scripture reference when i woke up this morning.
"I will remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."
(psalm 27:13-14)
how sweet of God to give me that after a hard week of waiting. really. he's the kindest one i know.
it's now been over a month since the original governmentt meeting and two weeks ago they had a second/additional meeting where more paperwork was provided. we were told that monday that a decision would be made by the following day. and now here we are two more weeks out and another weekend comes with no decision.
i have tried to reassure family in the last week or so and i'll do the same with those that read this. i do not know a single friend who has internationally adopted that has not experienced this in some form: government changing laws, the government making big decisions, saying they'll tell you a certain day and rarely following through. i was initially naive to think the same issues would not come up with us, but unfortunately it has been the case.
in the middle of this all, though, we have received all kinds of encouragement and God has been doing some crazy things in our lives and in our faith, especially jacob's. i hope we will be able to share several amazing posts about these last two weeks once we receive our referral. but we are far from hopeless and incredibly confident that things will continue to move forward with our orphanage. that it will receive it's licensing and that it will continue forward.
that being said. i am tired. it's been somewhat difficult to explain but i've really felt emotionally drained. we have been doing a lot of praying and battling and i would be lying to say that my mind hasn't been in taiwan much of the last two weeks especially. as a friend and i were discussing it's not even the waiting that i'm struggling with but the government....a referral i am prepared to wait for. child(ren) i am planning for and know that God will provide...it's this truly obnoxious in between state where we are waiting for the government to give the final okay that things are in fact going to move forward. and it's their inability to follow through with even a remotely timely response that has been so annoying. so when i woke up friday morning, knowing it was already evening in taiwan, i was pretty bummed...knowing that it was now the weekend, businesses were closed, and no decisions could come until at least monday.
but it's when these restless times hit that God is his most encouraging and kind to wake us up in the night and whisper his promises that we will continue to see His goodness as we have in so many other ways already. and it's when he nudges us to say "be strong, take heart, and wait".
"I will remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."
(psalm 27:13-14)
how sweet of God to give me that after a hard week of waiting. really. he's the kindest one i know.
it's now been over a month since the original governmentt meeting and two weeks ago they had a second/additional meeting where more paperwork was provided. we were told that monday that a decision would be made by the following day. and now here we are two more weeks out and another weekend comes with no decision.
i have tried to reassure family in the last week or so and i'll do the same with those that read this. i do not know a single friend who has internationally adopted that has not experienced this in some form: government changing laws, the government making big decisions, saying they'll tell you a certain day and rarely following through. i was initially naive to think the same issues would not come up with us, but unfortunately it has been the case.
in the middle of this all, though, we have received all kinds of encouragement and God has been doing some crazy things in our lives and in our faith, especially jacob's. i hope we will be able to share several amazing posts about these last two weeks once we receive our referral. but we are far from hopeless and incredibly confident that things will continue to move forward with our orphanage. that it will receive it's licensing and that it will continue forward.
that being said. i am tired. it's been somewhat difficult to explain but i've really felt emotionally drained. we have been doing a lot of praying and battling and i would be lying to say that my mind hasn't been in taiwan much of the last two weeks especially. as a friend and i were discussing it's not even the waiting that i'm struggling with but the government....a referral i am prepared to wait for. child(ren) i am planning for and know that God will provide...it's this truly obnoxious in between state where we are waiting for the government to give the final okay that things are in fact going to move forward. and it's their inability to follow through with even a remotely timely response that has been so annoying. so when i woke up friday morning, knowing it was already evening in taiwan, i was pretty bummed...knowing that it was now the weekend, businesses were closed, and no decisions could come until at least monday.
but it's when these restless times hit that God is his most encouraging and kind to wake us up in the night and whisper his promises that we will continue to see His goodness as we have in so many other ways already. and it's when he nudges us to say "be strong, take heart, and wait".
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